This is the Pulitzer Prize Winning Feature about a soldier suffering from PTSD. Certainly, documentary photography at it's finest...
Scott looks over his military
service records and weeps after being told his apartment application
had been turned down. The leasing manager said he couldn't allow Scott
to move in because of an assault charge on his background check. Though
Scott had his honorable discharge papers and his good-conduct medal,
Scott said they meant nothing. 'I'm not a criminal. You would think this
would be worth something. It should be. It's not, though.' (Craig F.
Walker, The Denver Post -Dec. 29, 2011)
Scott drinks a beer outside
the VFW Post in Longmont, Colo. Scott recalled his worst day in Iraq.
'We got this infantry platoon attached to us to beef up our numbers. ...
There was this one guy, and I knew right away that we were going to be
friends. ... The vehicle he was riding in the passenger seat hit a
really big bomb that day - really big IED, and it trapped him inside the
humvee, and I got to listen to and watch him scream as he burned. And I
never learned his name. There was nothing I could do. ... I lost a
friend that I never had.' (Craig F. Walker, The Denver Post - December
After punching a hole in his
bedroom door, Scott panics in his living room. 'My PTSD comes from long
exposure to combat trauma,' Scott said. 'I think it comes from the fact
that I survived. That wasn't my plan. It's an honor to die for my
country, but I made it home.' Scott said that being diagnosed with PTSD
'means I have nightmares every night. It means I'm hyper-vigilant -- It
means I have no fuse and if I get attacked, I'm going to kill. 'I don't
want to feel this way.
Scott watches an evening
storm roll in outside his apartment. 'I'm just feeling guilty about the
things I did. I was a brutal killer, and I rejoiced in it. I was bred to
be a killer, and I did it. Now I'm trying to adapt and feel human
again. But to feel human, I feel guilty. I did horrible things to
people... That's why I can't eat: I feel guilty, I feel sick.'
And lastly an exceptional documentary called "Hell and Back Again" which depicts the reality of modern war and the pain of reintegration. http://hellandbackagain.com/ (It's easy to download this doc from torrentz...)